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Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Ugh.

You would think at some point things would have to calm down, but alas they haven't. Work seems to be getting crazier and its not that we're busy but that a few of the people at work seem to just be into stirring things up and causing problems. Customers are starting to complain and of course the people being complained about think its not them even though they are mentioned by name or that its a joke or hilarious. I'm not sure how in any manner things going to corporate as a negative mark are in any way hilarious. Its come to a point were silence is all we have at work cause its the only way that things seem to work.

Home is well...the same. For some reason my father can't seem to get it in his head that he doesn't live there for free and that it doesn't matter that I have bills the bills are higher when there is an extra body in the house, especially when that extra body seems to think the heater needs to be up to 75 at all times cause using a blanket is just something unheard of apparently. Not to mention now he got a vehicle from someone and thinks I need to register it and license it in my name cause he doesn't want to have to switch his license and plates over from Arizona. Well I've got news for you, you live in a different state now its been almost three years since you came here get off your ass and switch your things over!! I will not take the responsibility of you or your shit any longer!! A move to Syracuse is needed to be in the works and soon and he will NOT be coming with us. I can't take anymore of this. It was suppose to be a two week visit seven years ago and here I am still babysitting yet somehow he thinks he's helping me out which is just....well I have no words for what it is seeing as how he pays for nothing and does nothing but cause me stress and my child to not have her own room.

Still no word yet from Alberto. I'm not sure if I should even expect it or just continue to count the days until his return and hope for the best. Some days seem to go by so quickly that I hardly notice and others drag and seem as if its already been lengthy time since hes been gone. I guess I can just hope that it continues as it has, keep my head up and press on as I had planned and set forth.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

I'm sorry, you want me to what?!

Suddenly it seems as if every day has some new challenge and that my quiet life has gone to pass for now. Hopefully as the holidays pass the quiet exsistence I once had will return.
 A few days ago I was at work and received a very strange phone call from a man asking for a women by my name, well there are two of us at work so I questioned which women he was looking for. With further information I discovered he was looking for me and asked how I could help him.  The conversation then took an interesting turn as he proceeded to ask personal questions such as who I live with, what my rent amount is and a few other questions that are in no way his business. As he finally got around to what his point was he told me basically that he can't afford his bills thinks that I should move in with him and take care of them for him! I'm sorry...what? Would you run that by me again?!
Yes, a complete stranger, well stranger to me at least, he apparently has been following me around, thinks that I should move in and pay his bills. WOW! Of course I tried to politely tell the crazy man on the other end of the phone that wasn't going to happen and get off the phone as fast as possible. He became very upset that I didn't like his idea and even more upset that I wouldn't take down his name and phone number in case as he put it changed my mind. Um yeah not going to happen!!! He needs to go get a job and some mental help.  I really don't think that the crazy man would do anything to harm me or Mariana, but it's definitely something I will have to now be more cautious about especially with him living not far from us. I have no idea how he knows my name, where I work, what I drive, where I live, or anything for that matter but he does and even said no one told him any of it, so I would have to go with stalking. I know that seems harsh but I find it odd for him to know so much and not only that but to be driving past my house multiple times a day for the last two weeks. I made it very clear that the police would be called and stalking charges would be pressed if he contacted me again or continues to go by my house. All I can do is hope its enough to keep him away and that he really won't do anything harmful.
Who knew living in such a small town could be so dramatic.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Silently Waiting.

As the week as past I stand strong in my path I've chosen. The silence has begun to set in and I wonder if the memories and conversations of the past, and looking forward to the hopes of the future are all I will have for now.
The anxiety that I dealt with before is now gone and a calm, collected happiness is in its place. Its as if expressing my true feelings was the only release I needed. The thoughts of those around me are but distant mumbles. Who are they to decide what is right for me or what I should or shouldn't do?
The days that I feel lost with out you are the days I know I'll struggle with. To feel as though I have no clue what I'm doing or which way is up is the hardest part. Hopefully those days will be few and far between. I'm sure with time I'll learn to deal with it, but that it will never go away.
As much as the days of silence are hard to deal with, I'm excited to know the countdown to your return is now here. Each day is one less in the wait, one closer to being in your arms again.